Grattitude
I haven't been giving this blog the attention it deserves. I am thriving, and the medication continues to do its job; thank you, God.
This summer has been relatively normal; our kids are 12, 9, 7, and 3; needless to say, they keep us busy. They have done all the camps, lessons, and outings, and we still have two camps left!
Summer is one of my favorites. Like many, we try and soak up and squeeze every moment with our family during this time. I would love for my children to look back one day and smile because they had the best summers growing up, and I know they will do the same with their families; I hope I get to be a part of those moments.
Seagrove 2022
As we have for the past ten summers, we upheld our cherished tradition.
Last summer, we felt like we were on our own emotional rollercoaster. Josh and I strived relentlessly to ensure our children's happiness by creating countless memories. Beneath the surface, we were consumed mainly by sadness. I was still on quite a bit of medication, unable to work, and things were still unfolding for us.
Our 2022 trip looked similar to all the years before, except I was very anxious, meaner than my baseline ( I blame the high-dose steroids I was on), and exhausted.
I was surrounded by God's beauty, in one of my favorite places on Earth, with this overwhelming heaviness. I think I cried every day. Not all day, but I would catch myself looking at Josh, my kids, and the ocean with tears in my eyes. This is the life I have always wanted, but now the dream of growing old with Josh and our grandkids at this beach feels more elusive than I ever imagined. I prayed a lot for miracles, comfort, and peace.
July 26, 2022
“Please heal my body, God. Please let the medication have unseen results and shrink the tumors in my brain until they are gone. Bring me peace that only can come from you.”
God is faithful.
A year has passed since we last set foot in our cherished place, and now we find ourselves here again, basking in the warmth of God's unwavering presence. In this favorite place, we recognize that God's faithfulness is not simply a fleeting sentiment; it is an ever-present truth. It was with us in the past, it is with us now, and it will continue to guide us in the future.
Regardless of what lies ahead, we can move forward with confidence, knowing that He is faithful and that His steadfast love will never waver.
MRI from June 2022
Like so many of you, this time last year, I pleaded with God to heal me. My last brain MRI was a few weeks ago.
MRI from June 2023
Where there once were three large tumors, there are now none, not one.
Thank you, God, for continuing to heal my body. Thank you, God, for blessing me with a beautiful, chaotic, exhausting summer; I pray that so many more follow.
